When life give you lemons…

… suck ‘em.

Turned 34. Have a position that lets me work realistic hours and provides excellent onsite daycare for Baby J.  Have a great boss and a flexible schedule.  About to hit my 5-year mark with the company (which means an extra week of vacation AND 80% STD).  Am always behind but thankfully doing well enough in law school (knock on wood).

Husband (and, oddly, boss) are both encouraging me to get pregnant.  Husband wants a girl and I am opposed to pregnancy but not necessarily to a third.  Thinking it through, if we wait until I am done with school and the bar, I will be 36 and, post-bar, ready to start ramping back up career-wise.  So it looks like it’s now or never.

Thought I might be pregnant last month after achy boobs, general grumpiness and tight pants.  Nope, just fat and PMS-ing and period came 10 days late.  This month, however, I was due on the 14th and still nothing… except all-day nausea since Sunday, exhaustion and, again, sore boobs.  Sucking on lemons and lemon water, peppermint tea and diet ginger ale to make the nausea stop.  No positive HPT so it could just be pychosomatic.

Regardless, I guess we are doing this thing.  If not now, soon.  Bracing myself and praying it all works out (including the daily blood-thinner shots in my belly and no insane health issues like last time).  Also praying my mother does not have a heart attack over this.

[Sunday update: went to doctors yesterday and I have a bladder infection.  Still no positive HPT or period and I am nauseated all day/throwing up at least once a day (like right now), among other symptoms.  Plus the WebMD Ovulation Calculator, which asks for a full three months of period dates, says my period was really due last Friday, not the Saturday before....  They took a blood test to see what's going on.  Never been this sick this early.  If I'm not pregnant, my body is really screwing with me. If I am, it had better not be twins or a sign of a very hormonal little girl.  Geez!  Will hear tomorrow and will let y'all know.]