Archive for July, 2009

July 28th, 2009  Posted at   Health, Women in Law
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So I work in the legal department of a large corporation and I am seriously, seriously, SERIOUSLY overworked right now. I finally convinced my boss to hire me some help (clutching my stomach and threatening to vomit blood on his desk probably helped) and we had a person in mind. The candidate was set to come in for a second interview this week when, after another super long day, we received reference information on her that was less than glowing. Now my boss is going to cancel the interview and it is back to the drawing board. :(

The frustrating thing is that I don’t want to get a lame duck. I have that somewhat in the secretary we hired. She was supposed to take some of the load off of me but she asks so many questions and comes in with so many issues each day that I’m convinced she either has no clue what she is doing or she is trying to push work back on me. Argh. So I really need someone competent who can take initiative and actually take over some of the projects currently on my desk. I am only one person and am literally doing the job of three right now.

We had a meeting today where my boss asked me to take on yet another priority project. I pulled out a notepad and made a list of all the projects I have to finish by this time next week. It was a full page of lined paper long. Grrr. After the group meeting I pulled my boss aside and made him go through my list under the guise of assisting me with prioritizing. Honestly! I don’t think he has a clue how much I am doing for the rest of the group members in addition to the tasks I have for my own responsibilities, the work from Big Boss and the projects for him. It’s starting to get just a wee bit overwhelming!

And I don’t have test results from the doc yet. I had a missed call from their office but no voicemail. I need to call back but the thing is that they forgot to collect my deductible and, honestly, I just don’t have it. Part of me is really worried that I will go in to see her and they won’t let me pass go without coughing up the funds. Bah. :(

July 27th, 2009  Posted at   Law School, MILS, Mommy stuff, Women in Law
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This week’s MILP Roundup was guest hosted by Mama Cee. The Roundup is the brainchild of Saramel (retired). It is hosted on a rotating basis at the PT-LawMom and the A Little Fish in Law School blogs and is usually posted no later than Monday morning.

July 25th, 2009  Posted at   Family Stuff, Mommy stuff
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Last week my cousin passed away after a brave battle with uterine cancer. She was my mother’s cousin and they were very close so, even though I had taken time off for medical procedures and even though my mother and I were having a tiff, I had to go. The service was a beautiful tribute to a wonderful woman. HOWEVER…

I arrived at the funeral home on Monday night. My father walks up and says, “Your mother and I have decided that [Pumpkinhead] is going to stay with us tonight so he can come to the funeral.” WTF?!?!? “We’ve already told [deceased cousin's Mom] and [Pumpkinhead's kindergarten teacher, a friend of my cousin] and they are super excited.” Again, WTF?!?!?! I was pissed.

But I tried to set a bit of a boundary. What I should have done was make them tell the people they had told that Pumpkinhead would NOT be coming. Instead, I told them I would sleep at their house (much closer to funeral home versus almost an hour to my place) and pick up Pumpkinhead from his Dad’s house in the morning. So they lost out on child time. Pumpkinhead didn’t even know my cousin had died so I had to tell him and he had tons of questions and it just generally sucked. Then Pumpkinhead and I left IMMEDIATELY after the service, foregoing the gravesite and the reception. Grrr.

Fortunately sweet Mr. V met us and took Pumpkinhead to daycare so that I didn’t have to take a whole day off of work, yet another thing they did not consider.

July 25th, 2009  Posted at   Family Stuff
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My mother has been in rare form lately. A week or so I called her to mention that I was feeling ill and that my son was acting out. Her response? “Well, you got divorced, you moved your child away from his grandparents and you wonder why? You’re just reaping what you sowed.” Damn. And I thought the whore comment was bad.

Parents lent me $3k towards the $6,200 I had to pay to get the house sold. You’d think I took their last dollar. Dad still is out of work, so I get it. But she called every single week, if not twice a week, to ask when the escrow money would come in and whether I’d gotten any of the money Blue Eyes owes me. The answer to both was always no. Finally she had my Dad call me and I almost jumped through the phone to tear him a new one, explaining that they were totally stressing me out, that the money from escrow would take a full month and they had known that from day one and that Blue Eyes would pay me when he could. Grrr.

So the check finally came from escrow. Mother insists she has to drive it out so I can sign it over to her. I have de-friended parents on Facebook and am not speaking to her at this point. But I let her come out. Does she run to the bank and cash it after all that? NOOOOOO. She waits a whole freaking week!!!!! Grrr.

Now she’s trying to friend me again on Facebook. Not bloody likely.

July 25th, 2009  Posted at   Dating, Divorce, Mommy stuff, Single Parents
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So I’m frustrated today. Ex-boyfriend has not paid back any of the money he owes me and, with the way my parents talk, you’d think they are going into the poorhouse any day now because they helped me pay the closing costs on my house sale. Waah, waah, waah. Meanwhile I haven’t received child support in a month, had to pay $450 for medical tests, my bank account is overdrawn, I don’t get paid for another week and Stupid Ex-Husband who refuses to pay the only joint credit card he was ordered to pay in our divorce decree is RUINING MY CREDIT! All of my cards just jumped up to the default rate because of the “delinquency.” Fuck.

And yesterday Chapin lost his job. Called me in the morning to whine and to ask if I could help him find something else. I told him there’s a little thing called a public library with free computers. He also asked if he could borrow some money. I told him I don’t have a dime to my name. He said fine and hung up.

Fast forward to today… I try to get Chapin to take Pumpkinhead tonight and he acts all cagey, saying he didn’t sleep last night and asking if he can take him tomorrow instead. I feel bad thinking maybe he was so upset about losing his job that he couldn’t sleep. Still, I press for him to watch Pumpkinhead overnight (too long without sex makes PT-LawMom a Very.Cranky.Woman!) Finally the story comes out. He’s three hours away. At a casino. Where he won $400. Fucker!!! So not only has he not paid me for a month, now he has money and still won’t take his kid? Oh hell no!!! I told him he is getting Pumpkinhead on his doorstep at 5 p.m.

Of course that means that after a day spent sanding down kitchen cabinets for Mr. V’s parents (because I said I would when I moved in but have been sick ever since), I have to drive 1.5 hours round trip to drop the kid off just so that perhaps I can have a nice night with my boyfriend. That would be the same boyfriend who won’t let me start painting our room this afternoon because it would “cut into his nap.” (He has a medical condition and does have to nap but sometimes the timing really freaking sucks!) And the same boyfriend who has been constantly on edge and pissy for the past few weeks because things haven’t been going well with his job. Well my life is hard, too, but you don’t see me walking around with a sourpuss face cranky all the time. Life’s short, damn it!

Finally, I am trying to sell some of my furniture. It’s kind of killing me even though I need the money and don’t really have anywhere to put this stuff. The thing is that I am just feeling shaky right now. I have lost sooooo much in the past year and now it’s like I have to give even more up and trust that everything will work out. I believe it will. I do. But it feels like I’m riding on a wing and a prayer sometimes and that makes the control freak in me want to scream… or cry.

July 20th, 2009  Posted at   Dating, Health, Law School, MILS, Mommy stuff, Single Parents, Women in Law
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A few of the recent searches bringing you all to my blog

weekly MILP (Moms in Law Practice) Roundup of recent posts by other lawyer-mother-bloggers – Yep, you have found it. Also at A Little Fish in Law School.

single parents in law school and law school single mom – Not impossible if you’re going full-time. Pretty horrible if you’re going part-time, to be sure! Support is essential.

how to study for part time law student,mom – I tried to study before work while Pumpkinhead was asleep, during my lunch break and then all day Sunday while my ex-husband watched Pumpkinhead. Never quite worked out. My classmates definitely had a competitive advantage. Another classmate would leave and go to the law library to do it. If you have a supportive spouse, I would do that. My ex-husband wasn’t supportive of my leaving the house and gave me a lot of guilt about the amount of time I was not spending with our son.

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legal secretary blog – There have been some good ones out there, mostly focusing on tips and tricks to assist legal secretaries in their craft rather than exposes. Man, attorneys are paranoid! With good reason, perhaps, because some of you are crazy freaks.

where is cee She is here. And she’s guest hosting the Roundup next week. Enjoy!

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mils pics – Yeah, see above! We know each other but it is rare that we will share pics with you. See the attorney paranoia thing above.

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secreterial workload problems – What’s the problem? If you are the secretary, try to find ways to streamline your work. There are lots of tips and tricks on the web. If you are the boss, you need to help her prioritize by telling her the things that you want her to put at the top of the list.

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lawyer mommy work life balance blog – Try Lag Liv. http://www.lagliv.blogspot.com

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dating single parent sleeping with person – I presume you’re asking how to go about sleeping with a single parent? There are many schools of thought. 1) Do it when the kid is gone with their other parent. 2) Do it when the kid is asleep. 3) Get a sitter and do it at your place and then let him/her leave. Just remember that the kid comes first when you’re dating a single parent and that you both have to be comfortable, whatever the situation.

What happens if my husband failed his immigration interview? Deportation? Not good. :(

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roux-en-y regrets and “weight loss” balance memory aphasia – Look under my Health category. Ugh.

immigration law lucrative – In the sense that many forms-based practices can be lucrative because paralegals can do a lot of the prep work, sure. But hard because you have to keep up with the changing laws and the whims of different USCIS offices.

green card interview 6 months still no reply from uscis – We had to wait almost a year. And that was a good 7 years ago. These days, good luck!

womens pornLiterotica has a great article on how to select and purchase porn

do single law students have an advantage over classmates with boyfriends/girlfriends- Yes. And over those with husbands and kids. But only in terms of study time. They still have to be smart.

milf field – Is it a career choice? Hmm…

“legal secretary” “horror stories” – Ha. Got a few hours? Seriously, though, any legal secretary worth her salt (and any who wants to keep working in her town) will probably keep them to herself.

nz tattoos of kiwi birds – See my Characters page for a picture of mine

are you open to the possibility to marry – Sure

July 19th, 2009  Posted at   Law School, MILS, Mommy stuff, Women in Law
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The Weekly MILP (Moms In the Legal Profession) Roundup** is the brainchild of Saramel (retired). It is hosted on a rotating basis at the PT-LawMom, and A Little Fish in Law School blogs and is usually posted no later than Monday morning. Next week’s MILP Roundup will be hosted by Cee, one of our lovely guest hosts.

JD Wannabe is remembering her worth and reminding you of yours (good for you!).

Certifiable is saving lives.

Lag Liv is super relaxed after a week at home with her boys.

LEO is starting to panic.

LawMummy is overwhelmed.

Butterflyfish is reviewing with us all.

Googie Baba is feeling conflicted.

ProtoAttorney is hunkering down.

Trannyhead is playing with Chucky.

Magic Cookie is celebrating five years of blogging.

Cee is keeping men where they belong!

Dakota is done.

If you would like to have your blog added to the MILP blogroll for weekly review or would like us to consider a specific post, drop the hostess(es) an email or leave a comment at their respective sites.

**Hat tip to the “original” Roundup Evan Schaeffer’s Legal Underground and Thanks, But No Thanks

July 16th, 2009  Posted at   Dating, Family Stuff, Mommy stuff
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Several of my readers have commented that I don’t seem quite like myself lately. I’m not really sure what that means or how to take that so I’m going to take it as a compliment. This time last year life suuucckked. I spent a lot of time in therapy, in church and having meaningless flings trying to get through the hard times and figure out where life was going. Just six months ago I would have told you that, although I felt like I was getting there, I still wasn’t sure what life held. But just as I have always known that He would guide me in His own time, I have always believed that God gives you what you need when you need it.

Then I met Mr. V. And it was like rainbows filled the sky, the angels started to sing and my bruised heart expanded more than I could have ever imagined. I told you all when I met him that it was like a thunderbolt. I couldn’t believe what I was feeling. Then a few months later when Pumpkinhead met him, it was the same thing. Love at first sight. My kid, no matter how nonchalant I have been, hasn’t stopped asking when Mr. V and I will get married so we can live together because he adores him. He *never* did that with Blue Eyes, even though he really liked him. It’s like he can tell the difference. My parents, my coworkers, my friends all tell me something is different about me. Someone asked me about Mr. V today and I just lit up. He makes me very happy.

And today he asked me to Pumpkinhead and I to move in with him. And we said yes. :-) (Shut it, naysayers.) Turns out my roommates’ daughter is exceptionally allergic to the cats. My roommate ad said I had a cat and they responded anyway. Shirley the Cool Cat ran away for two weeks and, when she fortunately turned up, had to go back to my parents’ house so she could continue to be an outside cat. So I adopted two kittens from the SPCA during half-price June. Turns out the little girl who shares a room with Pumpkinhead is so sick her eyes are almost shut. She’s taking Claritin but it isn’t working. So someone has to go. Mr. V said “Cat’s can come but only if you two come, too.” I didn’t think roommates would go for it but they practically jumped at the chance to have the house to themselves. Wow… So next thing I knew, I was accepting his request and the wheels are in motion. We both spoke with Pumpkinhead and he is nothing but excited (we are being cautious). Mr. V also knows that if things don’t work out that he has to stay in contact with Pumpkinhead. But the end goal is for things to work out permanently. We will see how it goes. If nothing else, this saves us both money and it will be great for Pumpkinhead to have a good male figure around (not to mention free daycare!) Hell, even Chapin thinks it is a good idea. He suggested it back when I said I was moving and was surprised that I *wasn’t* moving in with Mr. V. LOL. For that matter, so did my Dad. In any case, even though Mr. V doesn’t believe in a Master Plan, I do believe that everything happens for a reason and that God’s hand guides the good and the bad in life. I am so much stronger than I have ever been and am doing really well at setting boundaries, standing up for myself and being clear about my needs. Mr. V and I are alike enough to get along like lifelong friends and dissimilar enough to pick up the slack in each others’ weaker areas. He compliments me and doesn’t suck my strength or make me feel less than. He fills up the empty spaces – even those I didn’t realize where there. My cup overfloweth. Hopefully I do the same for him.

July 14th, 2009  Posted at   Divorce, Family Stuff, Health, Mommy stuff
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Life’s gotten a little overwhelming lately and I’ve turned into Cranky Miss SnarkyPants. Probably doesn’t help that my monthly friend finally showed up a full TWO WEEKS late. Grrr.

Chapin has given up his apartment and taken a traveling job where he may be home once every two weeks. Maybe every three. But he can only see Pumpkinhead for a few hours because where would they sleep? :( He called every night for the first week and now nothing. Putz. And don’t even ask about child support. Gone. (Not because of him but because the stupid wage withholding order takes FOREVER to get issued to the new employer).

Money is tight. First electric bill came in and it is a doozy. And poor Mr. V who runs his own company and teaches in the fall and spring for steady income has been losing customers left and right so this summer SUCKS. Inconsiderate me got grouchy with him when he said he was considering giving up his health insurance to save money. Personally, as a sick person, I think that is insane. But apparently people do it all the time. Horrors! I told him we can both save money by cooking at home every night and that if I cook enough for dinner, he should have leftovers for lunch (a meal he also eats out often). Nasty Ms. Nastykins also laid the guilt on good about money generally and longterm financial compatibility. :( On the one hand, I needed to say something as part of my new “set your boundaries and say what you need” life strategy and because I am feeling the pressure as a single mom. On the other hand, he is always there for me and I can definitely see how this is a temporary slump brought on by the lousy economy. Still, it is scary. I wouldn’t have the tolerance for running my own business for this very reason.

I think I am also feeling snarky because I had to redo benefits today. In a twist of great luck, I got the chance to up my voluntary life by $60k to a total of $180k without health forms (I can’t qualify for life insurance without an employer’s guarantee, but I am also eligible for and carry $450k in AD&D since it’s more likely I will die in an accident at this age.) But then I had to pick a beneficiary to hold the money on Pumpkinhead’s behalf and use it for his benefit. Considering my parents’ complete inability to handle financial matters appropriately, I had to choose not to put my mother down. The question then was best friend/Godmother or ex-husband. For now ex-husband wins. I know, it sounds crazy. But I had no choice and the reality is that, if I die right now, Chapin *would* get Pumpkinhead. The beneficiary info is listed as “Chapin as custodian for Pumpkinhead under the [State] Uniform Transfer to Minors Act.” Godmother is contingent beneficiary. Under our divorce decree, Chapin has to take out a certain amount of life insurance and name me as beneficiary so I think it is probably fair for me to do the same for now. Doesn’t make it any less of a gutwrencher.

July 13th, 2009  Posted at   Health, Women in Law
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Nooo, not that kind (damn it). Just a quick update.

Upper GI couldn’t get far enough down to where the pain and problem is. Doc sent me home with a bunch of pills (acid reducers, probiotics, etc.) and an order for a small bowel follow-through. Can’t get in until July 27, lucky me.

In other news, my boss FINALLY decided to hire me some help (could the vomiting in my trash can have indicated that I’m a bit stressed, perhaps?!?!). Woot! Was very productive at work today, probably knowing some of my workload will soon (i.e., a month from now?) be shifted to someone else. Thank goodness. Cried to the point of hyperventilation at my desk Thursday morning (yes, I am horribly embarrassed; no, it was not intentional) after someone called and yelled at me. Obviously I am losing it!