| Yesterday was rough. New Roomie is very melodramatic. But Mr. V and I have decided it’s he and I against the world and that this is a temporary situation. Pumpkinhead really likes her kids and, quite frankly, I cannot afford both my own apartment and summer daycare for him. 
But Pumpkinhead is sad. He drew a picture yesterday of a boy with a downturned smile next to a house and wrote “A house is a house”. He’s also pulling the skin off around his fingers, although that started even before my fight with my mother. I am very worried about him and am going to call his psychiatrist today to see if she can see him.
Speaking of my mother, she packed up all of my dishes from her kitchen and put them outside my door. Then she left town for the week. 
New Roomie called me yesterday to ask how much I intend to pay her to watch Pumpkinhead each night while I’m with Mr. V. Okay, what?!? This has been something she has brought up over and over and I keep telling her I won’t be with Mr. V every night. And that Pumpkinhead’s Dad has him two evenings a week. And that if I’m with Mr. V other nights, Pumpkinhead will most likely be with us. Anyway, New Roomie said she will charge $50 for a night out. Um, no thanks. I’ll find my own sitter. JESUS!
As for Mr. V, he said that New Roomie blew a lot of stuff out of proportion. After talking to her yesterday about various things, I agree. So he and I will talk amongst ourselves and take EVERYTHING she says with a huge grain of salt. Sigh… And this is only temporary while I check out good schools for Pumpkinhead and find a place for him to land.
Now for the weird part. Pumpkinhead said to me last night, “Did you hear me call [Mr. V] [Blue Eyes]? Don’t you think they look alike?” (Um, tall, dark blue-eyed, so, sure a bit, but not totally, and Mr. V asked me out so it’s not like I went after someone who looked like Blue Eyes). “Will we ever see [Blue Eyes] again? Do you remember where he lives? Do you think he remembers me?” Yeah, I almost lost it there. I am such a selfish witch of a mother. Damn. This is exactly why dating as a single parent is so fucking hard. Because it is not just your heart that breaks, but your child’s heart. I know Pumpkinhead adored Blue Eyes and he just disappeared from his life one day. As a five year-old, that had to be traumatic. I don’t know of another way it could have gone but, wow, talk about a Parent FAIL. 
On the other hand, Blue Eyes has been a single parent for years and dated many, many, MANY women, the majority of whom have met his girls. His girls don’t seem to be the worse for it. So who knows? Crap.
So bottom line is Pumpkinhead is stressed and worrying me. New Roomie is melodramatic and a little on the crazy side. Mr. V rocks (and I adore him). And the next few months are going to be interesting. But if I keep the end goal in sight and start searching for good schools and a secure place for us to live in August, that should help.
Oh lawdy do I know where you’re coming from!! This was one of the main reasons I stayed single, and why I allowed minimal contact between someone I was seeing’s family and Damien because I didn’t want them getting attached and things didn’t work. But hell its a fine line…
New Roomie sounds a bit loony, I do hope you don’t have to stay with them too long.
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Wow, for $50 I’d almost be able to drive from where I live to where you live to watch sweet Pumpkinhead! I’m so glad you are aware of the drama-queen BEFORE she was able to wreak any real havoc. I think in a matter of weeks you will be reporting that he is loving having some kids around to play with and is thriving there. (((HUGS)))
Another reason why I tried so desperately hard to keep a Friend with Benefits and nothing more than that. I failed too. Yeah, I thought motherhood would be hard, but dating as a single mom really takes the cake on difficulty.
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Wow,difficult situation. I have full custody and separated for 2 1/2 years but, my girls have never met anyone I dated. My mother was a sinlge mom and I still remember 2 of her boyfriends and she remarried when I was 8 years old – 27 years and counting
He’s my dad.
One of her boyfriends was a really nice guy and the other not so nice. If you bring good, honest, sincere people into your childs life how can that be a bad thing? Plus, if she never met and married my stepdad then I wouldn’t have all those wonderful memories or him!
Everyones road to happiness is often difficult and never the same. Good luck.
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First of all, we project A LOT of our own thoughts on to our kids. It may not be traumatic for Pumpkinhead to not see Blue Eyes anymore. He simply may be curious. This is an opportunity to explain to him that people come in to our lives for a reason. Some stay around. Others leave indelible marks on our hearts but leave anyway. We can still send those people love and they will still feel it.
I hate to hear about the roommate drama. That sounds the hardest part of all because you have to live there.
It sounds like you are giving your son the support and love that he needs. Now the only thing you can do is your best to remain calm and let him know that you can handle what life throws your way too. They are watching us all the time.
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Sounds like Pumpkinhead is definitely stressing out… but don’t beat yourself up. You are learning as you go. You are not perfect, none of us are. And this is BY FAR the hardest part of single parent dating.
Any chance Blue Eyes may come back around every few months to just show Pumpkinhead he cares? I did that with Kris my ex… faded him out over six months b/c we had dated six months. Now Benjamin never asks about him, but Benjamin is only three.
Gosh. Good luck with all of this hon.
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