I told Chapin to bring me the truck and leave it here so I can sell it. We owe $29k and it is worth about $24k. The credit union said that he can pay the balance off over time but, regardless of the court order, we are both on the hook until it is paid off. I walked out of the credit union, made it two steps and threw up in a garbage can. Blue Eyes wants to know why I haven’t shopped around for cheap, non-insurance-covered glass to replace my passenger-side window. It’s the constant desire to throw up and the overwhelming pain in my body from all this stress that is why. I HAVE TO believe that if I can just make it through the next few weeks, finish school and deal with all of this, my path will change. I turn 30 on December 28 and by then I WILL start to have a happier, more peaceful life!

Another day has almost come and gone
I can’t imagine what else could wrong
Sometimes I’d like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war

‘Cause tomorrows another day
And I’m thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

It’s almost like the hard times circle round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing – but I’m not dead