There’s glass in my ass. And I didn’t put it there. No, the guy that smashed my car window and stole my work laptop, purse and the one piece of inheritance my grandmother left specifically for me in her will. 
I’m sorry, apparently I missed the fact that this is “bend me over and gang rape me” year. Let’s recap:
January – Mother has massive heart attack, almost dies, leaves hospital with SEVEN stents in her RCA.
February – Brother steals $10,000 from Mother while she is recovering (he stole her extra debit card while he was here in January. She physically kicked him out TWO DAYS before she had her heart attack!)
March – PT-LawMom has mini-nervous breakdown induced by too-fast increase in Topamax dosage, quits her job and, thank GOD, manages to hold it together long enough to find a new (and much more awesome) one. Brother is arrested for hitting his girlfriend (again) and goes to jail. Parents BAIL HIM OUT. And pay for his attorney. And are still making his car payments and student loan payments. Their poor little bipolar, diabetic baby doesn’t know what he’s doing and just needs their help. 
April – Chapin still hasn’t actually done couples therapy he’s been promising for about two years of on/off fighting. Tells PT-LawMom she has to quit her job when she tells him she may have to travel for work. Threatens to call her boss if she doesn’t quit. PT-LawMom writes a 20-page research paper and delivers a half-coherent oral argument.
May – PT-LawMom goes to mentor the incoming law students the first Saturday of the month, leaving her son at home with his grandmother and thereby “breaking the rules”. Chapin calls her a bitch/slut/whore and raises his fists to hit her in front of her son. Her heart finally hardens completely and she files for divorce a week later. A week after that, she loses her fourth and final grandparent in a 15-month period. Her father leaves for his homeland for the funeral. Brother gets off the battery charges with two years’ probation. Oh yeah, and somewhere in there I had final exams.
June – PT-LawMom literally ties her stomach in knots. Spends two weeks in the hospital, undergoes major surgery and has to drop all of her summer classes to recover.
July – Chapin leaves the country to “recover” from the divorce. PT-LawMom drags her butt to court and stands up, alone, to finalize the divorce. Spends the day of her divorce having hot sex with a guy who tells her it was awesome, makes plans to meet up soon and then Never Calls Again!
August – Chapin announces that he is not returning because he feels the urge to kill PT-LawMom and needs time to get over that. PT-LawMom moves in with her parents. PT-LawMom’s mother discovers that PT-LawMom’s Dad hasn’t been taking his bipolar meds and hasn’t been to work in TWO MONTHS. Yes, this is the man that pays for mother’s health insurance while she recovers from her HEART ATTACK!
September – PT-LawMom has to pay all of Chapin’s bills because most are still in both names. She also has to pack up the whole five-bedroom house ALONE even though she cannot lift more than 5lbs after the surgery and ends up paying day laborers to help. Pumpkinhead undergoes psychological testing. Law school announces that one of the two summer classes in which I took an incomplete won’t be offered again at night until the fall before I graduate, which means I take a FAIL and have to keep it on my transcript until the spring I graduate.
October – PT-LawMom’s post-gastric bypass malnutrition-induced neuropathic pain returns with a vengeance and she has to increase her Cymbalta dosage, with nasty side effects.
Pumpkinhead is required to start medication and starts cognitive behavioral therapy at $140/week. Chapin returns.
November – Chapin announces that he cannot and will not pay the almost $600/month payment on the Toyota Tundra (again, in both names). PT-LawMom’s car is broken into and she loses the only thing her grandmother specifically named for her in the will (a gorgeous ring I had just removed from the safe to have re-sized) and many other things. University financial aid department e-mails to request immediate payment of $2,300 to Sallie Mae since I did not “make progress” in any summer classes. LOVELY. Oh, and while PT-LawMom is dealing with the police and cleaning glass out of her car, PT-LawMom’s parents are having a knock-down/drag-out argument in front of her son, complete with foul words, crying and screaming. 
Oh, and brother is coming down for Thanksgiving…
December – Forecast: Failing law school, complete nervous breakdown, crawling under a rock?!?
Blue Eyes said I need to embrace his philosophy. “Oh well!” If it was one thing, it would be easier to do so. As I was sitting there tonight for TWO HOURS waiting for the cops to show, I was very calm. I tend to do this when things go really, really wrong. When Chapin told me, the night before our first trip to Guatemala, that, “Oh, by the way, I have a daughter over there”, I sat calmly, processed it and moved on to practical ways to deal with the situation. Despite all my bitching on this blog, I tend to take the big things in a very analytical, calm way. But tonight I could feel my stomach knotting and I almost threw up. I am ANGRY!!!! I have lost so much in the last two years. Three of my beloved grandparents died between Nov. 2006 – May 2007 and Chapin brought home an STD and we had to spend all this time trying to work on “fixing” our marriage. I spent last year in MAJOR pain with my neuropathies and just trying to keep my head afloat. Now I feel like if One More Thing comes my way, it’s going to be the last straw. I don’t care if people think I’m whining. I am PISSED. I feel bereft and furious. Want to help me out? Buy a t-shirt or click through Amazon in my sidebar to do your Christmas shopping. Between Chapin, the car deductible, etc., I am financially fucked.
You know, I started this blog to chronicle my journey during law school. I never imagined things would go downhill so fast in so many areas other than school. What the hell?!?! Is someone out to get me? I have to believe this will end. And, damn it, I just cannot be positive all the time.
