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Breathing in and out

I am trying to sit here at home and distract myself from my life. Unfortunately I have Chapin planning to leave the country for a few weeks and asking me, again, if I’m sure I want to move forward with the divorce. I have a whole law school class down the drain and another one looming, plus pressure from my internal angel to skip it and my internal devil saying, “You’ll never finish law school if you don’t move ahead.” Not to mention that I don’t even know if I can handle three classes in the fall when two was so much work over the past year. I have the house sale that has been put on hold while I was in the hospital. We were supposed to get it listed last weekend and now we’re way behind and my house is just not ready. I wanted to pack stuff up but I have a lifting restriction (no more than 10lbs) for the forseeable future. That also made my mother question how I plan to tackle another class starting next week when I can’t even grab my bag out of the car. And I can’t even begin to think about work, of which I’ve missed two weeks and will miss one more, and which has a “no sick leave for 6 months” policy. I haven’t even spoken to HR about short-term disability or other options and am just expecting a ZERO paycheck next Friday, about which I’m not sure what to do. The neighbor decided to change the fence and is hitting me up for half the cost. Meanwhile I’m just floating down that famous Egyptian river…

Fortunately I am surrounded by beautiful flowers and have waves of prayers and support to carry me through. My awesome study partner sent me an Edible Arrangement, complete with some chocolate-dipped fruits (yum!). Sweet New Duck sent me two novels and a Suduko book to keep me occupied. And my Dad took Pumpkinhead and my nanny’s daughters out to see Wall.E. this morning. So I’m going to sit in bed and continue to distract myself with these lovely things and save the worries for Monday.

This entry was posted on Saturday, June 28th, 2008 at 2:48 pm and is filed under Health, Law School, Work/Life Balance . You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.

3 Responses to “Breathing in and out”

LL Says:
June 28th, 2008 at 7:14 pm
Definitely just keep with the breathing. And remember that a tough time, even a really tough time, doesn’t change the reasons you filed for divorce in the first place. You’re significantly stronger than you think you are, so I’m not too worried about you changing your mind.

As for the class, it’s true that you’ll need to graduate at some point, but will 1 class right now help significantly? I think that if not taking one would really stress you out then perhaps it isn’t worth skipping the session, but is there an “easy” (or at least, easier) one you can do right now? Do you have to take 3 classes next semester? Is the school working with you on this?

And most important, I’m thinking of you and sending you thoughts of strength, happiness, and recovery.
Proto Attorney Says:
June 29th, 2008 at 2:39 pm
Well, the only good thing about life completely sucking is that it can only get better from here! You’ll start feeling better soon, you’ll be able to pack up the house, get it sold, and start a whole new life. When the present makes you depressed, just concentrate on the good the future holds. And by all means impose upon every friend you have for anything you need done. Sit on the couch, point to things and make other people box them up for you! I’m willing to bet from reading your blog that you’re one of those people who goes out of your way to help every friend in need, but then never wants to impose on anyone in return. Don’t go it alone; even if your friends are mostly out of town or out of state, let ‘em make a trip out. That’s what friends are there for!

Feel better and don’t stress too much. Things will come together soon enough.

P.S. Can you do an independent study? At our school, we’re allowed to do it, if we find professors willing to supervise. Also, don’t rush graduating. Then you just have to look for another job!
Shelley Says:
June 29th, 2008 at 8:02 pm
My two cents — skip the class. One class in the scheme of things is not a big deal, and you have Real Life to deal with over the summer. (Your summer without a class is still a tremendous endeavor!) School will be there when you’re ready, work will be there when you’re ready, and the rest of it may take time, but it will get done, somehow. Breathing helps!

Breathing in and out

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