TGIF
Well, it’s Thursday night and I’ve made it through the week so far.
Can’t sleep and wake up several times in the night but am doing well otherwise.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my neurologist for a med check. I’ve been doing well on the Cymbalta so far (knock wood!) with only some breakthrough sunburn-like pain in my left arm and some pain/tingling in my right foot. Wonder if I should mention my still-burning stomach? I did call my PCP on Wednesday afternoon and spoke to her nurse but the doctor hasn’t returned my call. Hmmm. Finally went and got Zantac tonight because the Rolaids just aren’t working. I’m not supposed to have these problems (gastric bypass almost eliminates stomach acid) but I talked to some fellow WLS grads and they said it sounds like a duodenal ulcer and that a week or two of Zantac might help. So, since my doctor won’t return my call, I’ll try it.
Looks like I am going to sell the house after all. It’s just too expensive and my parents think that, rather than helping me with the mortgage for a year, it makes more sense to put that money towards a downpayment on a cheaper house. Fortunately there are houses for a good $70k less than mine only a mile away so Pumpkinhead could stay in the school district and the nanny and her kids can move with us. Now I just have to see if someone wants to buy this place! Wish me luck.
The good thing about selling the house is that it gets Chapin completely out of my financial life (as opposed to him staying on the mortgage until I finish school). I really just want him gone! He is planning to go out of the country in a week or so for about three weeks. With any luck he’ll delay until late June so that he’ll be pretty much gone through the court date. Only one of us has to go if he signs the papers, which he says he will do. Despite my many protests, he still thinks I’ll give him another chance as a “boyfriend” after we divorce (hence his willingness to sign). The hard part will be getting him to leave once the divorce is final but perhaps he will grow a pair and decide it’s not worth being with someone who doesn’t want him anymore. And he needs help, but the two psychologists he’s called through my EAP are booked for weeks/months so he gave up. Sigh…
I’m really enjoying my current class. It’s a good distraction from life and is a subject I find fascinating. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep up since it moves so quickly. So far, so good.
My Dad is in his country for my Poppa’s funeral. It will be Monday and then he has to return on Tuesday. 
He had to travel very far and the trip is extremely short for that type of flight. My mother thought he should take a week or two off to help pack up the house but he refused. I think this is harder on him than he will admit and perhaps he feels he can avoid it by not being a full participant in the process. Sad.
June 13th, 2008 at 7:19 am
I am a reader of yours and have been amazed by how many things you can juggle at the same time. It is good to see that you are still in control in such a difficult time. Here are my admirations and best wishes.
June 13th, 2008 at 7:29 am
Thanks for the compliment. Honestly I just want to lay in bed and wallow but I know that if I do that, I may never leave the bed. It’s amazing how kids change you. When I wake up and look at his happy face, I know he needs me to keep going and not be a miserable lump. Law school is also distracting in a positive way. I’m just trying to compartmentalize my life, focus on the parts that are going relatively well and remember that Pumpkinhead needs a mother who can keep it together.