Mini nervous breakdown
Well I’d been taking it all in stride, pretty much. Then someone at school said something nasty to me tonight and I lost it. Started crying and could not stop. Left class, drove straight to my parents’ house and waited in their driveway until they got home from a memorial service. My Dad pulled up and found me weeping in my car. I cannot remember the last time I cuddled with my Dad. This evening I actually sat on his lap and cried on his shoulder. I am totally spent.
My Mom gave me a cuddle, too, then pulled out a nightgown, ran me a bath and sent me off to her guest room. Of course I had to call home to let Pumpkinhead know where I was. He was fine with it and said a happy “Good night, Mommy!” Then 5 minutes later the phone rings again and it’s Chapin telling me that Pumpkinhead is crying and wants to come over and sleep with me here. Yes, my soon-to-be-ex is a Master Manipulator
. Fortunately, as sad as I was at the idea of Pumpkinhead crying, I told him, “What are you going to do when he’s sleeping at your apartment and he starts crying for me? He has to learn to spend a night without me sometime!” So I stuck to my guns and am now bathed, more relaxed, cried out and ready for bed. I hope Pumpkinhead wasn’t really crying and that Chapin was just saying that but, regardless, I need to set boundaries. Argh. ![]()









June 5th, 2008 at 11:15 pm
You poor girl! But I’m glad to hear you got a good cry - it sounds like you needed it. And your parents sound amazingly supportive, so enjoy your night away!
June 6th, 2008 at 12:08 am
*hugs* You need time for yourself too and I would have said the same thing in your place. Courage!
June 6th, 2008 at 1:19 am
Good for you. I’m sure he was fine with you not being there, and you need time to yourself. And whoever was mean to you at school can suck it.
June 6th, 2008 at 1:43 am
Shame on your nasty classmate - but I am so glad you were able to decompress at your first home!
You already know this, but you are amazingly blessed in your parents!
June 6th, 2008 at 9:10 am
Hang in there. It sounds like you’re making tough, wise decisions. Somehow it so often sucks to make those kind of decisions, but so worth it in the long run. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
June 6th, 2008 at 10:55 am
Good for you for standing strong! And I think you are perfectly entitled to a breakdown with everything that is going on. But WTF is up with law students acting like high school students?
June 6th, 2008 at 1:23 pm
Tears, like throwing up are miserable, but make you feel better afterwards. At least they are less stinky! Sorry, bad attempt at humor there.
June 6th, 2008 at 9:36 pm
I agree with the general sentiments of others . . . it’s good for you to release! I hope it will make you feel better. It does sound like your parents are incredibly supportive and trying to help you out. And I think it sounds like Douchebag was trying to make you come back . . . I’m sure Pumpkinhead was just fine. The sooner Douchebag moves out the better!
Hang in there, honey!
June 7th, 2008 at 7:09 am
Sorry to rattle your world…but if Chapin bought land in another country and has no regard for ‘paper’ you better make damn sure if Pumpkinhead has a passport YOU ARE THE KEEPER of that passport. Better yet…make sure Pumpkinhead has one of the new passports which can be ‘located.’
I don’t know how often Chapin goes to visit outside this country…but you better make damn sure Pumpkinhead doesn’t go with him until the child is old enough to understand how to find home, again.
June 8th, 2008 at 12:31 am
aww, i’m so sorry. People can be so awful! Aren’t parents great? Sometimes i feel like the older I am, the MORE i need them
June 9th, 2008 at 9:08 am
Hey - so sorry to hear about all that is going on with you - but so happy that you have found the strength to leave Chapin. It sounds like your parents are wonderfully supportive, and close by! Thank Goodness. I’ll be sending lots of good thoughts your way.