PT-LawMom

I haven’t been sleeping. I’ll be exhausted in the middle of the day but when nighttime comes, I just can’t sleep. I think it’s nerves. It’s like I know my days are numbered and I can’t bear to sleep when it means losing out on time with Pumpkinhead or time to read, relax, etc. While I’m happy to be embarking on this new adventure and eager to start, I’m nervous about the reality of working/studying and still finding time for family. I’ve had almost two years of downtime (just work and straight home) and it’s been soooooo nice! When I was in undergrad, I worked full-time and went to school at night. I was pregnant when I graduated. Before we moved here, I was working a full-time job and a part-time job (from home) and had Pumpkinhead, but he was younger and less obviously needy. I worry about his potential reactions to my need to study. I also worry about stress and the health effects. My body seems to react poorly to stress and, while I’ve learned to be much less Type A as the years have passed, I am still your average Capricorn nut. Finally, I’m concerned that Chapin’s “go for it” attitude will quickly change. He works a blue collar job and has little education. I’ve always made more money than him and it hasn’t been an issue in the past, but who knows how he’ll feel now that he’ll have to accompany me to events and be the man behind the woman. Ack!  I know what he brings to our marriage and always tell him, but I can see how he might start to feel insecure.

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